I can't do this anymore, i just want my baby safely in my arms, where i can nurse him and give him plenty of cuddles, i don't want him with anybody else i just want him here with me, he's my baby! I completely and utterly give up i'm not okay and i shall not pretend i am, i'd give anything to have him here with me and doubt other mummys of angels would to..
Im missing my Harry and my mum so much, losing my mother was hard but losing my baby just two months after, does anybody really deserve this? How can there be a god? Arghh.. I want to scream and smash everything up in my house, as i type this i feel my body heating up with anger and tears just running down my face!!
Again more comments of people saying be strong, wtf? how can i? i gave birth to my beautiful baby who was sleeping just 6weeks ago and you want me to be strong? are you mental..
Im sick of faking a smile, i dont even want to smile i just want to lock myself in a room in the dark and never come out.. DO NOT TELL ME TO BE STRONG..
Can anybody seriously mean be strong when they say it? or do they just say it because its what you say? I know i will never say be strong to anybody when they have just give birth to a sleeping baby, because i wouldnt actually expect them to be strong.. Infact i would say dont be strong!