Sunday, 13 March 2011

Mummys missing you.

Dear Harry.

Mummys missing you so much, each day seems to be a struggle and getting harder not easier. I love you so much, i just pray to god that your with my mum and in safe keeping because although your in my heart Angel your still my baby, and you need someone to look after you up there in heaven, each day i wake up i hope that its the day i come to rest with you, mummys hurting baby and doesnt want to get through each day without you but knows i have no choice, just looking at your photo reduces me to tears, because you should be here with me and not away from me, nobody relises that im dying inside just because i look 'ok' on the outside doesnt mean a thing! Im missing you more and more each day and i love you baby, just wish i was waking up in the night for cuddles off you and giving you your night feed instead im waking up to a empty room without you, my life will never be the same without you and i cant bea to think of ever being happy without you i need you Harry i really need you :'(

Monday, 7 March 2011

I feel..

I Feel..

  • Angry
  • Jelous of other mummys with there babys
  • Sad
  • Upset
  • Anxious
  • Lonely
  • Scared
  • Worried
  • Resentful
  • Nervous
  • Tired

I feel so many more emotions but i can't think anymore :(

I love you so much Harry you mean so much to me, I will never except you have gone.